You won’t understand lolol. Stalking someone right now; who I think is in severe need of mental help. So um, keeping these in hopes I can someday show them to her mother. Because I doubt she knows how messed up this kid is.

||Hot. Pretty. Gorgeous. Cute. Sexy. Beautiful.||
It doesn’t matter what you say about me on the outside when I know that I’m so hideous on the inside, Love. Can’t you tell that I’m blatantly lying to you every time?
I feel so awful because I know that although you’ve completely given your heart to me, mine belongs to someone else.
Does that make me such a horrible person? I don’t want to send you on your way because I myself know what it’s like to be heartbroken. You’re so fragile right now. I care about you. I don’t want to see you get hurt.
But… I don’t love you.
I need you to break my heart so I won’t feel so fucking guilty for breaking yours in return. Please, stop being so… nice to me. I’m a sad little fucker and I’ll inevitably make you sad as well. Just leave so I can continue digging myself deeper into this hole. I’m going to Hell for this and I don’t want to bring you down with me.

I’m so sorry.

—S.E.K
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I’ll never blame you for my mistakes;;
but there are a lot of things that have happened in my life that I know wouldn’t have had you still been alive and here to stop me.
Your ever-loyal daughter,
— S.E.K
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HerpDerp.

…
I find it so odd.
That even after everything that has happened between us;;
And everything that has happened between myself and the new boyfriend;;
I’d still pick you if I could.
Every fucking time.
…
I don’t think you ever fully grasped how strong of a hold you had over me. Even if it was only for a few months.
— S.E.K